THE BLOG….my happy place.

Welcome to my (Gwen Vogelzang) personal blog. Read about my experiences as a special needs adoptive parent, our family life, and the story behind publishing our first book “If I Squeeze Your Head I’m Sorry.”

Someday in Heaven

I was sitting in the 3rd row from the front at church, our regular spot.  Susie was talking about heaven in a context I can't put my finger on, because I got lost in a whirlwind of color and textures surrounding my view of heaven as it relates to our family.  I...

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Our family of four was sitting at a picnic table at an Orange Beach playground this week.  An 8 year old Alabama girl walked over to play with our clan and took a seat at the table.  Within 3 minutes, she whispered to our daughter, "Does your brother have special...

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So Much More Than Poo

We learned a lot about poo in our parenting classes.  How to change diapers, all the diaper options, how to wipe, how to handle rashes.  We were solid on poo and how much of it we were about to encounter.  We also learned CPR and got real serious about finding the...

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Two Hands

We pulled into Caroline and Mark's driveway in our boxy blue Volvo that morning.  I couldn't tell you what we talked about during that 20 minute car ride.  A lot of nothing.  What do you say when you're about to lay eyes on your baby boy, 3 weeks new?  What do you say...

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My Wednesday Night Sandy Lagoon

I was laying in a white lounge chair at the end of a row of 5 pregnant women.  The woman next to me was a sweet sweet friend from church, her head cocked toward mine in anticipation.  The others were strangers to me. There was powdery, white sand under the edge of our...

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Creative Mama’ing

Gretchen Saffles' "Proverbs 31 Woman" study has been next to my cream, wing back chair for the past couple months.  She's guiding me through what it looks like to walk as a woman of God.  So many lessons to be learned from this passage and study, but one has lept off...

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The Margins of Infertility

  It was a Tuesday I think.  I was in the shower and Tim was getting ready to bike the 13 miles to his office.  The kids were sleeping, the dog was sprawled on our white linen bedspread, staring at us longingly.  My always analyzing and deep feeling heart had...

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All is Not Fair

I drop my daughter off at school every morning, squeeze her at least 4 times, depending on her amount of love for me that morning, leave the building, and go on with my day.  I pick her up when the bell sounds, ask if it was a great day (because it always is) and call...

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Week #4

We've been journeying through this home school adventure for a little over 3 weeks now. Our little adventure doesn't look like most home schooling adventures.  I get the looks when I state the fact that we're homeschooling.  You know, the big eyes, the dramatized...

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